Matthew 6: 25-34 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.”
My fears these days lie in the area of Motherhood. I’m a mother to a newborn (who by the way is the cutest baby on the planet). The insecurities and questions about my ability to really sustain his life rattle me to my inner core. This reality, and the fear that resides in my heart surprise me, and I’ve been trying to calm my anxious heart for weeks now. This uneasiness I know is not from the Lord, and it has been on my mind to meditate on it and continue to ask the Lord to remove it. Journey together with me as I meditate on fear.
Fear after all is evidence that the created has taken the place of the creator. When did fear enter the garden? What was Adam and Eve afraid of? Genesis 3:10 says that Adam replied to God that he was afraid. Fear enters the heart of man for the very first time. Sin had occurred, Adam had broken the promise he made to the Lord, and fear rushed in. When created things set themselves up as Creator in their lives fear rushes in. We were not designed to bear the weight of the Divine, and when we try, we are crushed under its weight, fear reigns and our hearts are miserable.
In Contrast Matthew mentions the lilies of the field. The created blissfully trust their Maker for the provision of just the right combination of sun & rain. The birds of the air, they never worry about storing up provisions and making sure their 401 K’s are fully funded. There is no fear when we realize we are created, that we have a Maker who is moving heaven and earth and can control what comes in (and what goes out) of our lives.
What fears lurk in the back of your mind? Do you fear where the resources will come to provide for your family? Do you fear not obtaining that promotion, that degree, that accolade? Do you fear the past, or the future? Where does your desire to be the Creator reside? Is it in controlling those who you work with, your children’s scholastic path, your own destiny?
In my mothering can I trust the Lord to be faithful to provide for Jeremiah? He is after all is the Lord’s. Can I trust the Lord to ensure his nutrition, to sustain his health all the days of his life? I can when I stop being the Creator in Jeremiah’s life. When I stop owning the responsibility of his every breath. When I can lay down my fear, when I can focus on the good God of Heaven who has given his own Son for my ransom, when I know that His Hand ultimately has shaped the universe and given the lilies of the field life, then… and only then will my fear subside.
Pray for me friends, as I pray for you that the fears of this life will be silenced and overwhelmed by joy as we worship our God as the created, and lay down our obsession to be Creator in our lives and the lives of those the Lord has placed around us.